It is 4 o’clock in the morning, dark all around and I have been awake for a while by the pain. I feel the need to draw. I go to my table and turn on the light. The markers and pencils are there. Sometimes I prefer to use markers to draw the pain as they works better for describing the shock waves and currents, which are the texture of this pain.
I feel attracted to the left side of the paper, and as I start describing the waves, I am compelled to go left more and more, until the pain goes out. This was surprising. Does it mean that the pain is on its way to leave me?
I let my sense of beauty come in now. I add the way I feel in my stomach when the pain is as it is. I add three grey shapes that I don’t know what they are. I feel they are some kind of presences. At that moment I break the mental grasp of the space in which the pain happens. The experience of pain shifts from the physical three dimensions to a part in an energetic experience whose space is not the same. Into this non-physical space I add the way my hand tenses when the pain is as it is. Then sitting silhouettes appear, floating in the energy space.
The process that I just described is how I shift from doing a specific description of a physical experience to opening up to a mystical, non physical space. This is it, folks. This is the way to shift from suffering to witnessing and from fear to wonder. Just by trusting and following your sense of beauty. The pain is still there, but it is a phenomenon in a mystical space. It is not so hard to do. And while I am in that state, my body fills with healing energy. I feel how my body relaxes, and before long, the pain subsides.