I came to my desk at around 5AM again. I made the drawing that you see here. I wrote what parts of the drawing conveyed to me. I scrambled the sentences and rewrote them in a new order. I read. It did not make much sense to me, so I left it on the desk, to see it in the morning.
In the morning I immediately saw that it was a very coherent advice from my intuition. I want to show you how these things work, because you can do it too. Maybe at first it will feel strange and untrustworthy. But as you do this more times you will start seeing that it never fails to deliver something of importance, assisting you on your path. I am not the only one who has a guide inside of him. Everybody has. Listening to this guidance, you know that you are never alone. You know that you are loved. Basically you realize there is no problem anywhere. There is only your free will, choosing to allow the flow of who-you-are, or resisting it.
Be very forceful and decisive now
Thinking is like flying to places
It is hard to hold all this in your head
Look at your neighbor the tree
This is the way the air goes through it
The pipe is open and listening
Flying is daring.
Now if you look at the drawing you’ll see the little tree near the base, in yellow.
The flesh color part, as if turning toward something, which is outside and being strong and with a specific intension, made me write the first line.
The green shape in the upper right, made me write about flying.
The violet and the dark pink, looking like a living thing breathing, made me write about the pipe, open and listening.
The circle in the upper middle part of the drawing made me think about a head that carries everything.
The flying part brought another sentence about thinking as flying.
The light blue little balloon-like shape, under the head and slightly to the left, made me write the sentence about air.
The tree is a being that has no thoughts to block the flow of what-it-is.
Now when I read the poem, this is what comes to me from the reading:
I am still in the process of healing. It has gone well. Maybe it is the last step. I have to be decisive and keep my focus on being healthy.
My thoughts will take me where I want to go. They will fly me, as it came in the original sentences.
It is hard to do all this from the head, meaning through thoughts of the limited “I”.
This part knows only about differences among things. If you want to go west, thoughts about the east will come up too and the two directions will have to fight with each other. The fighting makes you tired and you lose the focus.
The only way to do it right is through the heart, meaning, opening your mental and emotional being to become a non-resisting pipe, to allowing who-you-truly-are flow through you. This flow, if not hindered, is the solution to everything. It always has a focus and since health is inherent in it, it will bring health, if you want it.
The daring has to do with trusting the unknown to guide you.
When you see in your experience that the unknown loves you and can guide you if you are willing to be guided by it, the trusting becomes easier. The daring becomes a habit.