It came to me to draw the nerves. It happened when I was in pain and drew, of course, without knowing what I was doing. I did not draw the pain as before. When I finished I thought that it looked like nerve cells that were trying desperately to connect and it did not work. They still had a too large distance between them. The way they curled and shook felt like the pain that I was experiencing. The way they got knotted felt like something that happened to them and maybe was the cause of their difficulty to connect.
Then I thought: Why won’t I draw the nerves again and see what will intuition do.
It seems that intuition wanted to streamline the nerves, the messages and the movement of energy but the colors are still colors of pain.
I drew again some time later. It still was on my mind, which I took to mean that I still did not finish a process that wanted to be completed.
What did it do? The messages became richer and varied. Energy was moving through, but with quivering and pain. This is true to the way my nerves are nowadays. I have more sensation in the skin of the feet than I had a few weeks ago. Sensation is coming back. It feels as if the nerves are actively growing back into the places where they were deteriorated, and in this process, the order of how the condition started and became worse is reversed. Places that hurt in the beginning, many years ago, like the soles of the feet, and then got totally numb, are hurting again now.
A few days later, in pain, I draw again and it also seems to be the nerves.
When I went-in-with-words, this is what it said:
A nerve speaks up
I am shaking
And the nerve I touch
Touches another nerve
I turn around and hold on
There are a million attachments around me
And they all travel out now
Gathering around a tense-full center
On its way out.