108. OK my friends

Little Buddha, ready for bath

Little Buddha, ready for bath

OK, my friends. I know it is strange. I started this blog a year ago, promising to show you how I heal my body from a terrible nerve pain, resulting from a certain neuropathy, a condition that modern medicine does not know how to heal.

I went from number one to number fifty-eight and before the pain was healed, stopped the process, saying that this part finished itself and I had to agree with it.

Then I started investigating if it was possible to become free by doing this method. I found after a short time that there is nothing to do in order to be free, and the whole notion of doing something for this purpose is ridiculous. All you have to do is find out that this is true. It does take some doing though, mainly in the area of changing subconscious beliefs or releasing them. Releasing them is the best way. It starts as a doing and ends up doing itself.

I stopped for some time and then came back to add entries to what I now called Blog 3. I just loved the process too much. Today I have 107 entries, 108 with this one. It seems to not be going anywhere. I still have the pain. I have not become free. And everything I say is not true. How can anybody be not free? How can a thing like pain exist at all? I know I am not speaking clearly and I’d rather not speak at all. Then what am I doing with these words?

Why am I doing this, not going anywhere?

In about 1998 I wrote a story, coming back from a winter retreat with pneumonia, about a man who lost his insides, became different and could not decide what to do with his life, as it was not any more the way he knew it beforehand. He still wanted to put everything back in himself. But it did not work and he remained between full and empty. A few years later I studied art therapy and met with prisoners and crazy people who knew about life more than their doctors. Then I showed a nine years old boy, who chewed all his wooden furniture, and was taken to a mental hospital, how to feel the energy of anger. In 2004 I spent four years making intuitive art with teenagers who did not agree to be what their society wanted them to be. I supported it. And in 2011 I started this blog.

There is a book that I read about ten years ago. It is in Hebrew. It is called Tokyo Back and Forth, by Yaacov Raz. He was a Zen student in Japan and now I don’t know what he is. Or maybe I know and do not tell. When I read it then, I laughed all the time. I started to read it again today and I cry all the time. Not because I am sad, but because I feel like being home.

This blog is telling a story. I don’t know where the story goes and what will be in the end. I’ll let the story make itself, because it is the most loving and joyful thing that I can do with it.

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2 Responses to “108. OK my friends”


  1. 1 Colleen K. Peltomaa April 16, 2012 at 12:36 pm

    I recall a word that has been attributed to Confucius: “Failure is the Father of Success”. There have been times when I had to repeatedly say this to myself to keep myself from caving in. Since I learned the self-inquiry method I have also been saying “Perfect!” to myself as a re-direct.

    One of my most blissful moments was preceded by intense pain, and having run out of all other options, I started praising “god”, and thus worked myself up into a very high devotional state. Pain or no pain, it somehow dis-associated me from identifying with my body. I’ll never forget the “beauty” of that “pain” 🙂

    • 2 intuitiveflow8888 April 16, 2012 at 2:07 pm

      Thank you, Coleen. What you say is beautiful, true and encouraging. Everyone does it in his or her own way, but it is with the same principle, of moving the identification to what is true, in any way that works. Thank you again,
      Love, Giora


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Entries 1-58 show how I use the method of Intuition Through Art to heal myself from Peripheral Neuropathy.


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