Healing and growth through intuitive art
Creating timespace from infinity
I am just a memory
Of what it was
To be a person
I am the potential for more too
But I forgot
There is a big reason to frown
My memories think
As I am creating timespace
Every day
Far from infinity
I don’t even remember
That I can make all worries extinct
Or look like a fluffy cloud
Of rain long gone.
The creator baby
He came with
An uncanny talent
The discovery of which
Is connected to pain
He is
Bigger than me
Lovely and untouchable
Very close and very far
And he is
In me
He knows how to do things
Like a magical being
Like the operator behind the scene
He is
The ageless baby.
A late night drawing:
Soft dark secret
The morning words:
If you have
A soft dark secret
That’s how high you can get
Before it starts
Bleeding
Then you start
Coming close together
Out of fear
And even though
We provide a sky for you
You feel that it is limited
And pressured
And of course you hear a whisper
In the ear, saying
Dark secret…
Dark secret…
The words after the words:
All that comes after these words is an illusion of course.
The bleeding is a way for the energy to go.
It can only go down because the person feels that it is impossible to go up (the pressured sky). There is also the violet barrier at the top.
The left side wants to escape in another direction but is encumbered by the secret.
The fact that the same color is used for the dark secret and the barrier at the top means that the barrier is about the secret. It says: If this is what you did you don’t deserve to go higher than this.
I know I have to release this. But again, as it happened in the past, even though this is what I think, I do not feel like doing the release process. I have a feeling there is another way.
This was an illusion that I created and now I play suffering from it.
When people speak and do and the speaking and doing do not match, I believe in what they do.
When I think and feel and the thinking and feeling do not match, I believe in what I feel.
I speak with Int.
1. I want to be free.
2. How? What to do now?
And I do another drawing.
Shine
And the words come:
Let your pain and suffering
Come out as light
It is life on earth
It is part of being here
Open the storehouse
Of light
And shine
At first it will come out
With stones
And broken teeth
But then
Only light will flow.
This is the way.
And I said: OK.
Woken up around 3:30 at night, with the whole body trembling. I feel as if a different energy than my usual is entering my body. Maybe it is a dream and I am only half awake. I want to stay with it and allow the process to happen. After a while it is so uncomfortable that I get up and come to the studio. I turn on the light above the table.
I have been meditating a lot in bed at night. When the pain wakes me up I meditate. I connect with the feeling of “I.” I can experience how the body happens with all that happens in it. It is being manifested into being all the time. And I am watching everything. Then I fall asleep. The drawing is also about moving back and forth between the physical and the non physical.
Quite here but disappearing
Look
It is light blue outside now
Quite here but disappearing
And that’s the way it goes
The fruit that you are waiting for
Looks like leaves
But it is not
It is the body of the dream
In this cool air
Quite here
But disappearing.
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